Monday, July 19, 2010

My First "Feeling" as an Adoptive Mom

Last night I signed the letter of acceptance to adopt Tong Min Yin. The emotional response (aka infamous Andrea tears) began when I took a minute to read through the Chinese to the English translation ...

Name: Tong Min Yin
Identity: institutionalized child whose birth parents cannot be ascertained
In my mind I saw an image of a woman, her back to me, walking on a dirt road toward her home.  The further she went the more I felt sad for the baby. I know it's inappropriate to presume what the mother was thinking. In my image though she was  deeply afraid for her child and at the same time had a true measure of trust or faith that her child would be cared for.

A woman in China is trusting me to love and nurture her child. My awareness of the true presence of a trusting birth mother is what made the signing of the letter that much more of a "moment" for me.

3 comments:

  1. Reading your blog is more like reading a novel.

    Your writing is incredible.

    I envision this to be a book some day for others, going through the adoption process, to read and to come to understand the meaning of patience and the grace of your commitment.
    Love, Mom

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  2. Hi Andrea, I'm here by way of Sherri C. I'm so happy for you and the journey you are about to embark upon! And I can well identify with this feeling. I experience similar pangs every Mother's Day, every birthday, every "finding day," etc. I am so thankful for the choice my girl's birth mother made, but yet sad for the fact that she is missing out on what a treasure this child has become. Bittersweet indeed. Congrats and can't wait to follow along.

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